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In the middle of getting dinner together and I have been meaning to post a list of what I am thankful for. So here is the short version…..

Having rats
Having wonderful friends and family
Having a job
A roof over my familys head
Good food and good times.

Its a short list, but sums things up nicely. The boys are eagerly aniticipating some food stuffs and pumpkin pie.

Have a wonderful holiday everyone!

Watching it snow, the cold makes my breath fog the window. I suppose heavy sighs dont help that. I feel at a loss this evening, somehow complete yet a huge hole in my heart. I watched Esteban work over a kleenex box and Voldy try to be king of that castle. It didnt work quite like he planned, but it was amazingly cute. Nakeds have a way of working right into your heart, the ugly yet so incredibly cute applies in all directions with them. I enjoy watching all the boys play. I swear Im on a Dollar Store hunt this week for more blankies and toys. The boys seem bored and maybe listless.

My deep melancholy is the direct result of watching the beloved Fozzie suffer from CHF. He is just a young rat and yet he has all of these issues. I watch and there is little to do but offer him comfort and cuddles. Poor baby, its not fair.

You learn what loss feels like with rats, how it curls in and out of your belly. How the loss leaves holes in the heart, the way it makes you feel breathless. I cant hardly cry, but I mourn so deeply still. I find myself looking at pictures of those gone on and wait for tears, nothing.

The numb, like the cold that is settling onto us tonight, will be here for a long while. I welcome it, because at the very least it leaves an impression, something to feel.

The holidays are fast approaching. Seems liketime is always speeding by and I am struggling to stay on top of everything.

Thanksgiving is a favorite holiday for me simply because it allows time for reflection and a moment to really think about what Im thankful for. I have been blessed by wonderful family, loving and supportive friends, along with a batch of great furkids that love me for all I do.

I am always thankful for what was and how events have changed my life for the better and sometimes for worse. I think that hard times make us stronger, more fluid people. We arent able to become rigid and set in our ways, it gives us perspective and a sense of well being to know that we have all we do.

Things are tight all over right now, for most everyone. I believe that things will get better,we just have to hold on as a community and reach out to help those that need us. I have sent small donations to animal shelters and food banks alike. Its not alot but I know that little bits from everywhere ultimately add up to bigger and better.

I think that everyone should stop for a moment and take stock of their lives, right now, in this moment. Its so important to live and love in the here and now. Quite often we find ourselves always looking ahead, not looking at today.

Later I will make it a point to list what I am feeling very grateful for, something to go along with the few things I noted a paragraph or two up.

Right now I need to clean the cage and get some playtime going =D