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So the boys got a new playpen, compliments of Scott and I suppose it could be called an early Happy Birthday to me. They seemed put out and leary of it all yeaterday afternoon, my oldies wandering in a daze. LOL

I’m just killing time so I can go to the fabric store to get fleece, its always the fleece, always gotta have more. Naked in the cage means more snuggle blankets than usual.

I thought about my Fergus this morning and how much I still miss him, his quiet wisdom. He was a mama’s boy and I miss that bond we had. I suppose this time of year makes me melancholy in alot of ways.

Its hard to lose these guys and their lives zoom by in top speed. I am just lucky enough to get a few kisses and happy bruxes from conteneded passengers on that bullet train.

I thought just a touch
Something small, only for me
That quiet nod, the knowing look
Stranded on this island
I am alone, but never far from the crowd
It’s bright and yet I cannot see for the darkness
Quiet consumes, the screams leave me deafened
Sometimes, just now and again I wish for little more
Peace of mind, a moment of nothing
Understanding and letting go
Leaves me empty, leaves me bitter, leaves me somehow whole
Understanding and always letting go
Leaves me one heartbeat shy of cardiac arrest
Understanding and the heart not ever letting go
Thats what leaves me complete

Fall, a time of harvest, of reaping what we have sown all summer long. Dallying in sunlight and making hay as they once used to say. I find myself lost in quiet contemplation, of things gone on and those left behind. I watch the leaves change, then slowly drift to the ground. Fall is a season of gratitude and yet its full of death as well. The green of summer leaves behind the blaze of autum, announcing that winter will soon be on its heels.

The boys are warm in flannels, they have hammies galore in wonderful colors. Nanny in Texas made warm fleece sets for them to cuddle into. No drafts to bother this group of spoiled boys.

Soon there will pumpkin pies baking, it was a favorite with my boys for a very long time. The babies will get a taste for the first time, bet they love it.